Thursday, November 23, 2006
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Where's your red?
I don't often wear red lipstick, but when I do, I do it right.
In the fall or winter, when my skin is no longer a
golden brown, but like the changing of the leaves colors, mine has gone a soft fair white.
Red lips, white skin, my dark black hair - timeless.
5pm - I leave my office, on my way home...
Oh my god, every man, every woman glanced at me. I couldn't help but smile, it was endearing. And in this city of strangers amazingly my smiles were returned, what a pleasant surprise.
There was something about it.... the red lips.
It's comparable to when a gorgeous women walks into a room and all heads turn to see.
It felt seductive, empowering, boudoir, fun, girly, womanly, put together and beautiful.
So if you can handle these feelings, the looks, the smiles, the attention and the confidence it exudes... Then go for it, get to your closest Sephora find your red and you'll see just what I'm talking about.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
It's all fun and games until someone gets hurt... My mom used to say that often. Yet, maybe it's true.
Maybe - it's all fun and games, until I get hurt.
Until I realize that my BFWB, isn't my BF any longer, but he's now become just a guy I've known for a long time who loves my blowjobs and tits.
Until I realize that I would do anything in the world for the man I love, but he wouldn't for me and I need to stop loving him.
Until I realize that I think about a certain someone too much, but I can't let myself develop feelings for him.
Until I realize that a sort-of ex only wants fun and games out of me, but I'm think I'm realizing I need more than fun and games.
Keeping all this within my world is fun, lots of fun... but maybe it keeps me stagnant. Maybe it's the reason I haven't found the man who will love me the way I should be. Maybe I should end it all...
Are all my fun and games holding me back from something real happening?
Or am I complete emotional mess tonight and I'm blaming it on my fun and games... I assume time will tell.