Wednesday, November 15, 2006

It's all...

It's all fun and games until someone gets hurt... My mom used to say that often. Yet, maybe it's true.

Maybe - it's all fun and games, until I get hurt.

Until I realize that my BFWB, isn't my BF any longer, but he's now become just a guy I've known for a long time who loves my blowjobs and tits.

Until I realize that I would do anything in the world for the man I love, but he wouldn't for me and I need to stop loving him.

Until I realize that I think about a certain someone too much, but I can't let myself develop feelings for him.

Until I realize that a sort-of ex only wants fun and games out of me, but I'm think I'm realizing I need more than fun and games.

Keeping all this within my world is fun, lots of fun... but maybe it keeps me stagnant. Maybe it's the reason I haven't found the man who will love me the way I should be. Maybe I should end it all...

Are all my fun and games holding me back from something real happening?
Or am I complete emotional mess tonight and I'm blaming it on my fun and games... I assume time will tell.


Blogger Andy said...

i think you are a mess and you need to step up to the plate and actually live your life and stop hiding.

11/18/2006 8:20 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

being in a similar situation, once the real love of your life shows up,and u will know when he shows up, there wont be a need for other fun and games, He will be enough. But in the meantime theres nothing wrong with having fun with the wrong ones.

11/18/2006 9:31 PM  
Blogger Joey said...

Wow, two very different comments.. and both are interesting.

Andy -Your comment made me think about my current status. I do think I'm living life, but I need to hide certain aspects of it for certain reasons...

Anon -I love what you had to say and I hope it happens, thanks for the encouragement.


11/20/2006 11:19 AM  
Blogger Arashi-KIshu said...

Hi Joey, fun and games are all right when you and he are willing. When you want to get serious with someone, trust me, it will just happen. I've been there ;)

11/29/2006 2:39 AM  

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