F, for Fail.

I'll just come out and say it - Saturday night was a flop.

I suck - lol... and that’s about all I did, well actually... errr... ok here's the disappointing story:

The day started off badly. Morgan wasn't feeling well therefore he didn’t want to go to a hotel and his cabin was in use by other family members. Neither did we go to the sex shop to get some hot new porn and toys - so there already was a bit of a damper on the evening.
I arrived later than expected, due to him not feeling so well. I got there at about 8:30ish, right off the bat I think he could tell I wasn't right - I was actually so tired. We both had had about 3-4 hours of sleep the past two earlier nights. We hung out and bullshitted for a while...
I gave him a 45 minute massage it was AMAZING. Even I could tell just how damn good it was, He was thoroughly pleased. I would have gone the full 60 minutes but my hands were really starting to cramp. During the massage he had on his Stevie Ray Vaughan & Double Trouble DVD of a 1985 show (quality*) - it made for good massaging music.
After the massage I was seriously done, sooo tired, I can't even describe. I wasn't in the mode nor mood I should have been in; as well I wasn't looking forward to what was supposed to come next.
I couldn't do it - I couldn't do anything. I think I was just so panicky about the whole thing - that my body's response and my brain's excuse was exhaustion.

Side note:
After work on Friday I went with a friend to the sex shop by our office, she told me start with something simple - like a cock ring she also threw in some anal beads (we know - those are not exactly simple, but I knew it was something he wanted to try with me) well they weren't exactly beads, they were silicone ehhh - hard to explain. Meanwhile somewhere along the way I LOST the cock ring. I realize the loss about 5 minutes before leaving for his place, with the new item lost - I panic (again). I can do the cock ring it was such a baby step to lead up to the tying and blindfolding and anal silicony thingies. But now, now without that - Holy Shit.

After the massage I told him - give me a minute or few I just need to rest, I laid back on the bed. He knew it, knew it - my drowsiness was evident. He just gave me a look and all I could do was apologize... "I'm so sorry, but I'm so tired, can I pleeeease make it up to you?!" "At least it's not really your b-day, that's it - I'll make it up to you on your birthday, Monday". (Who am I to go and make promises about making this up to him - when my whole reasoning for being so tired is prolly to avoid the whole thing.)
He tells me its ok - and kisses my forehead, I know he's disappointed.

As I'm lying on the bed next to him falling asleep, he gets up, comes back over, blindfolds me and leads me to "the chair". I'm in no mood to be tied and used or punished or whatever - just let me sleep. He ties me to the chair leaving on only my corset and knee high black boots. He tells me that I've been bad and should be immediately punished... I feel the end of the crop brush softly against my nipples then it traces along my skin to my face, my cheek.....
I was actually so relaxed and drowsy that I could have fallen asleep just like that... SLAP
I feel the crop come down across my breast. I cry out, he hits the other- SLAP, I cry out again.
He again tells me I've been bad, I apologize, he teases my cunt with his crop... He teases my lips with his cock, my mouth opens and I reach to take it in, but he pulls back telling me - thought you were too tired, aren't you too tired and exhausted... SLAP... the crop comes down across my thigh...
After about 20 minutes of punishment he unties me, we go back to bed, I suck him... then as I lay back down to finally get some sleep... he comes from behind me and starts fucking me... and fucking me, and fucking me I wanted to almost beg him to stop but I wouldn't dare - I felt bad enough that I ruined the night.... He finished and cumes all over my ass, he then wipes it up and I fall asleep next to him still in my corset and black boots.